I have always been saying people as an idiot. that includes myself. yes. i am indeed an idiot.
but then, if everyone was an idiot, that simply makes everyone normal. so... we are all idiots.
Pslam 23. Lord thank you.
Thanks. :) ~written~ 10:27 PM
27 August 2009
Today, i realized something about myself I am so not just lazy. physically and mentally, i'm even lazy sub-consciously too. haizz.
i was told to make a decision today. to choose to be a BSL(Baritone SL) or not.(well, i was under probation)
the teacher in charge asked me: 'are you comfortable being the BSL?' i replied: 'ya.' She: 'so do you want to be the BSL?' Me: 'okay lor.' She: 'dun say okay la. say yes or no can?' Me: '............(15 sec later)....err' She: 'Why are you taking so long to answer? do u think you can lead the baritone? or do u think daniel can do better?' (btw, daniel is the other candidate for BSL) Me: '.....' She: 'nvm i call daniel, DANIEL!!!' Daniel: 'yes?' She: 'do you want to be the BSL?' Daniel: 'i'm okay with it' She: 'why Are you giving the same answer as Leon? -sigh-' 'okay leon, do you want to be the BSL?' Me: 'er.....' She: 'its just yes or no, why do you have to hesitate?' Me: 'yes and no,two choices alot leh!' she: 'like that ur test paper MCQ 4 choices the u will take even longer izit?' 'okay so who is the BSL? ME and daniel. -stares- She: 'its who can lead the baritone better?' 'fine then daniel, you be ther BSL'
a simple yes and no question. i have no idea how to answer. this had me thinking for the next one hour.
this question its like me standing in the middle. on one side is yes, the other side no. both of them are of equal distance away. i'm indecisive. both sides have equal pros and cons so what do i do? sub-consciously, i wait for a push. so the nearer side i'm on, i will just move there. as its of a shorter distance.. and i'm lazy.
in tests, MCQ is different. as the four options are NOT choices. there are there for you to choose the right one. thats how i score in MCQ similarly, when there are yes and no which are right and wrong, i would just choose the right one. although there are times that we are wrong.
as for the BSL post, i dun mind losing it. its just an excuse for me to go for cca practise. so now i lost it, sub-consciously, i am going to find another excuse. i think.
ahh.. i'm just so lazy . oh well. anyone got any tips which can help me in this area? dun freggin tell me to try not to be lazy or smt along that line. and ya. ~read below~
Thanks. :) ~written~ 11:18 PM
18 August 2009
okayy.. this is going to be the first non-language test i am going to fail.. chem test. combined some more....die..i open the paper first question also dunno how do... then like 95% questions dunno how do. ahhahhh~. lalalas.. die.
Thanks. :) ~written~ 5:05 PM
14 August 2009
How long has it been since i sat there. alone. The last times was at sec1. in between the Yachad camp and be4 i went to TQ. i could only watch the ants crawling around there. waiting... not knowing what to do next. all alone.
but today, i don't feel lonely. in fact, i feel that there will be someone. i waited there. for the moment to come, tomorrow.
i was at the church's bus stop.
i wish that all of us could remain a family. always.
my father says that:'a skill learnt can never be forgotten' to me, its true. with one exception. i have forgotten how to cry; to tear and empty my heart. maybe that's not a skill. nevertheless, when i feel pain, physically, mentally. i cannot cry. maybe its because of my pride, me growing up. i don't know.
God has his plans. whatever happens to us, it happens for a reason. he works in way we cannot see. believing this in everything i do. i am blessed.
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Thanks. :) ~written~ 9:40 PM
About Me
Leon Yao Jinchi
7 Dec 1994
AMKCMC
FOC
FWB
Peirce Sec Sch Yishun Junior College
3e3 4e2 CTG 111201
Still Choir (Stepped down)