Smack 3.57 in the middle of deh night. I'm awake. Why?.. hmm not sure. maybe due to the fact i slept at dusk yesterday. And. hmm yesterday.. was quite a boring day.\, considering that i spent the last six hours and first 8 hours sleeping. Yesterday's worship was good. Thanks, Worship team. Yesterday's sermon was good. Thanks, ZNDS Yesterday whatever time spent with peeps was good. Thanks, Yihui,Weien,Eugene and a couple more. Yesterday's gaming session with Guanliang was good. God was good and still is. He created us. He loves us. **Sidetrack for a moment** I've been thinking about what my father said on 7 Dec 2010. "there isn't a need to celebrate my birthday, because everyday is a birthday to me."(FYI, his birthday's on 7 Dec) Well, that's a great way of living. I want to live like that. Or maybe i am already. But then again that will cease to make the day of our births special. The day he created us. To be able to laugh, cry, feel pain. Lord. Thank you. So birthdays is another day we celebrate His grace. To once again thank him for bringing us through another year of living. People around will celebrate, too, for receiving the joy of having a brother/sister in Christ. This, in my opinion as i am now, is my perspective of birthdays. ******************************************* 'O' levels. finally over and cutting all, or most, strings attached. I think the worst part of this odyssey is actually entering the choices for tertiary education. Compared to just mugging and spending lotsa time behind a desk and reading about Venice, integrating stuff, attending exams and helping each other with their homework, it's nothing, NOTHING, compared to having disappointment directed directly upon you. Especially in a time in desperate need of encouragement. This is the worst experience of living till now. I tried sinking myself into ways to stop thinking, only to be nagged by the same people who made me do it.
Now when i look at this situation. Why doesn't it feel the same as how our heavenly Father look at us with disappointment? Maybe because he is graceful and doesn't stress us? Or maybe we are taking him for granted? The first fact is an excuse for the latter, i would say. Nevertheless, that's how a great God he is. Even though we disappointed him by wandering deep into the abyss of sin, he still shed his blood to bring us out, even though we still wander in with help from temptation, he would still lead us out. Lord, Thank you.
Some time ago, a battle to be fought on the next morning is going to be hard. Dusk came, we're yet ready. Miraculously, that night, help came, from above. He gave us rest from all sense of worry. At dawn, He lead us, to victory. Other endeavours are bound to come. The story will still be the same. Lord, Thank you. ************************************** I used to dream, like an idiot. I'm going to lose this ability, like an idiot.
(pardon me.) And so, we go...
Thanks. :) ~written~ 3:58 AM
About Me
Leon Yao Jinchi
7 Dec 1994
AMKCMC
FOC
FWB
Peirce Sec Sch Yishun Junior College
3e3 4e2 CTG 111201
Still Choir (Stepped down)