Why am i brooding on the end when it hasn't even begun. weird me.
Bye~ TO Infinity And BEyond!~
Thanks. :) ~written~ 8:41 AM
16 June 2011
First times. Scary, yet so much learnt from.
Had a BBQ party for my choir at my place. Planning was tough, but well. Luckily i had experience... kinda~ Thank God.
At some point of time i had stuff that intrigued me. Seeing how i used to be and understanding how people looked at me and how i looked i people. Being burdened with something that i threw upon myself. Speechlessness and needing to act otherwise.
Sacrificing a Relic of my past to make up for wrong-doings. I might be called a sentimental person, or maybe just afraid, un-confident. Needing something to assure me of my existence.
Let's Just Leave everything in His hands.
Come, let's soar with the clouds, and move, move on.
Thanks. :) ~written~ 1:25 AM
05 June 2011
The opinion of not wanting to think still holds true for me. I complain a lot about how tiring when things are too busy. Yet when things are easy going you get too much time. which the ever-going mind will shift its focus to thinking. thats pretty much where things get complicated.
I don't like looking back at objects in the distant past. It seems so reachable, as if stretching out a hand would grasp it. Reality is such a cruel thing. Once you've tasted something pleasant, eventually you will yearn for it again. The when the 'eventually' comes, you might have just forgotten what you are actually yearning for, leaving you with a missing gap to fill, one that allows coldness to spread through. However you adapt to the gap or coldness leads to different and different personalities. While other which are unable to, just loses the ability to provide warmth, turning into a black hole which just sucks surrounding happiness away.
Yet, the absence just makes the heart fonder, creating the endless cycle of tearing down inside the moment you taste and forget. I don't want to forget, yet at this point, i don't want to remember, since it only brings sorrow when you know how impossible distant it is.
Why can't i just have the courage i'm supposed to wake up and simply make it all mine being carefree? Where did all my carefree-ness which i once boasted so proudly of went? Getting inspired is nothing, when you can't express it out up front... maybe that's the reason why art was created...
Let's just leave everything to Him and have faith that he has a plan to use such a creation of his.
And thus, we continue on this pathway and go...
Thanks. :) ~written~ 12:38 AM
About Me
Leon Yao Jinchi
7 Dec 1994
AMKCMC
FOC
FWB
Peirce Sec Sch Yishun Junior College
3e3 4e2 CTG 111201
Still Choir (Stepped down)