this symptom.. having a huge swell of nostalgia and resulting in insomnia has been striking me quite a few times in this period.. so i just kinda play games to kill time and find thing to do and find stuff to eat.. nomnomnom. unhealthy but. well. sinking in the pleasure of food is kinda the best thing for me i guess.. in situations like this.
i went through the archives of blogs i find.. and i this thought came into my mind. can't i stay young and being a carefree child, must i grow up and enter the confusing and troublesome world? people say that i grow too fast. i like to remind and point out people of their own childishness. could be partly because i am jealous. but yeah. whatever. It suddenly feels unsafe. my comfort circle is being threatened with increasing knowledge. i don't wanna think. i don't wanna learn. and people think im weird with the excuse of them being troublesome. too bad. im lazy.
So many traps, so many pits out there. i am careless and i find many of them. stood up and continued walking. but the damage and scars i acquired, were they worth it? i try to be as carefree as possible. but some things were just too great to be avoided. i let it go, but it stills comes back to haunt me.
i think im a coward. even when my name stands for courage.
oh wells. im stopping. if you've preservered and read till here. i thank you. but not to worry i have my troubles under control. since He IS there for me..
sighs. 5.29 am 7 December 2010. sign off. the awesomething me.
~~~ what should i do nowww??? ~~~
Thanks. :) ~written~ 5:07 AM
About Me
Leon Yao Jinchi
7 Dec 1994
AMKCMC
FOC
FWB
Peirce Sec Sch Yishun Junior College
3e3 4e2 CTG 111201
Still Choir (Stepped down)