Today, i realized something about myself I am so not just lazy. physically and mentally, i'm even lazy sub-consciously too. haizz.
i was told to make a decision today. to choose to be a BSL(Baritone SL) or not.(well, i was under probation)
the teacher in charge asked me: 'are you comfortable being the BSL?' i replied: 'ya.' She: 'so do you want to be the BSL?' Me: 'okay lor.' She: 'dun say okay la. say yes or no can?' Me: '............(15 sec later)....err' She: 'Why are you taking so long to answer? do u think you can lead the baritone? or do u think daniel can do better?' (btw, daniel is the other candidate for BSL) Me: '.....' She: 'nvm i call daniel, DANIEL!!!' Daniel: 'yes?' She: 'do you want to be the BSL?' Daniel: 'i'm okay with it' She: 'why Are you giving the same answer as Leon? -sigh-' 'okay leon, do you want to be the BSL?' Me: 'er.....' She: 'its just yes or no, why do you have to hesitate?' Me: 'yes and no,two choices alot leh!' she: 'like that ur test paper MCQ 4 choices the u will take even longer izit?' 'okay so who is the BSL? ME and daniel. -stares- She: 'its who can lead the baritone better?' 'fine then daniel, you be ther BSL'
a simple yes and no question. i have no idea how to answer. this had me thinking for the next one hour.
this question its like me standing in the middle. on one side is yes, the other side no. both of them are of equal distance away. i'm indecisive. both sides have equal pros and cons so what do i do? sub-consciously, i wait for a push. so the nearer side i'm on, i will just move there. as its of a shorter distance.. and i'm lazy.
in tests, MCQ is different. as the four options are NOT choices. there are there for you to choose the right one. thats how i score in MCQ similarly, when there are yes and no which are right and wrong, i would just choose the right one. although there are times that we are wrong.
as for the BSL post, i dun mind losing it. its just an excuse for me to go for cca practise. so now i lost it, sub-consciously, i am going to find another excuse. i think.
ahh.. i'm just so lazy . oh well. anyone got any tips which can help me in this area? dun freggin tell me to try not to be lazy or smt along that line. and ya. ~read below~
Thanks. :) ~written~ 11:18 PM
About Me
Leon Yao Jinchi
7 Dec 1994
AMKCMC
FOC
FWB
Peirce Sec Sch Yishun Junior College
3e3 4e2 CTG 111201
Still Choir (Stepped down)